This past weekend’s race at the Auckland WTS did not go as planned or as hoped. I started out the race with a solid swim which gave me good positioning on the bike. However very early in the bike I found I did not have the legs to get me up the hills of a very challenging course. Throughout the eight laps I continued to get dropped from pack after pack. In addition I got a bit caught up behind a crash (first one not to hit it, so body completely intact), but to be honest I don’t think it really affected me other than just creating another challenge. Towards the end of the ride I thought I was going to get lapped out, meaning I wouldn’t continue on to the run. I got flustered when that didn’t happen and came into transition unprepared to dismount my bike. This is where I made my biggest mistake of the race. In allowing myself to get frazzled I dismounted my bike and unclipped my helmet before racking my bike. The moment I did it I knew it was wrong and that I would be serving a penalty, but off on the run I went.
At this point my legs had nothing, but I have vowed to never let myself quit a race. And so I mustered up all the Coeur I had inside me and I continued on to the run. I was able to pick off a few people ahead of me but my run was far from spectacular. On the second lap I passed the penalty box and saw that my number had been removed from the board. After asking twice if I needed to stop I was told to just continue to the finish. My incorrect assumption was that I was too far back and that my penalty no longer mattered.
Finishing the race I was disappointed in myself. I wasn’t sure what went wrong or why I was unable to perform to my potential. However, after a bit I was able to regroup and get myself to a happier place where I realized not all was lost in the race. I had a solid swim and I finished the race without giving up. It also helped me identify weaknesses and reflect on things I could have done differently to change the outcome. The race didn’t go well, but it was done and it was time to move.
And then I found out I was disqualified. I was devastated. Turns out that unclipping your helmet when still in possession of your bike is grounds for disqualification. The call could have been contested but only within the first five minutes of my finish and after that there is nothing that can be done. I was now physically and emotionally defeated. To me placing 36th is a lot better than a disqualification.
And then the support came. So much emboldening and consolation from many different people. Coaches of other athletes giving me encouraging words. Athletes who had done spectacularly and should be celebrating their own performances comforting me. New friends from New Plymouth reminding me not to forget accomplishments of the past. Veteran triathletes reminding me that it happens, it sucks but it’s no big deal and to move on. Friends and family from back home sending their love. Messages from my Coeur family being unfathomably supportive and reminding me to keep my head up. And Tommy who was there to listen to me as I talked everything out.
So now after having time to digest everything, I’m still disappointed but I also have learned invaluable lessons. The biggest, is that by not giving up I felt the hurt, I suffered through it and I know I’m a stronger athlete today than I was yesterday because of it. I’m also driven to not let that happen again; to compete as the strong mental and physical athlete I know I am and to not make silly mistakes that can cost me a race. I’m ready to go back to Scottsdale regroup and better myself. Yesterday was no bueno, but it’s now time to learn and move on and get ready for the next one…Capetown WTS!
Tuesday, April 1, 2014
We flew over from Mooloolaba in a small jet,
To a place I most certainly will never forget.
The town of New Plymouth welcomed us with open arms,
A place with a beautiful countryside with bountiful farms.
Then there is Mt. Taranaki that rises from the ground,
And I quite enjoyed being able to listen to that ocean sound.
Team USA was adopted by Devon Intermediate, a local school,
The kids made us banners and flags, and wore USA dresses that were super cool!
Everyone so friendly and welcoming us for the New Plymouth World Cup,
In such an awesome place it was quite easy to get pumped up!
Leading up to the race the wind wand was bending,
But come race day the breeze was ending.
We had the perfect day, and galloped into calm waters,
All our parents following on triathlon.org cheering on their daughters.
Carol Routier led out of the swim like a beast,
I wasn’t able to hold on to her super fast feet.
So I came out of the water with a group of other girls,
A fast transition, into the air and onto the bike my body hurls.
We had a group of thirteen working hard with McIlroy leading the way,
It was a tough course and all I had to do was make sure in the group I stay.
4 laps around and then we were done,
Time to get started onto the 5k run.
Heading out of transition I just tried to relax,
Making sure to work each hill to my max.
My strategy worked and throughout the race I opened a small gap,
Giving it everything I had on the final lap.
It was such a cool feeling crossing the finishing tape,
Thinking of all the things that led to getting first place.
Now onward to the Auckland WTS,
For my final race before heading back to the U.S.
Stay tuned and I’ll be sure to fill you in,
And for all the support, I thank you again!